Thank you all so very much.
You know that nagging feeling after THE appointment is made and then things look up? Well, here we are. She definitely is walking around again, but other times she can't control the back legs and this p.m. they downright crossed and wouldn't hold her up. She's alert and picked up her head and body to trot to the kitchen this afternoon when I decorated cupcakes for a dog event tomorrow. But even though they were her favorite flavor, she had absolutely no interest in eating one. Same thing tonite with a piece of bread from Hank's plate. It's heartwrenching to see her go into the room where her water and food bowls are and just sit and stare .... almost like she's thinking she knows she should be in there for some reason but she can't quite figure out what it is. She DID finally tonite take a couple sips of water, but that's a first for today. Then I thought maybe I should call our regular vet and see if increasing the Prednesone is what would be needed, but that would only help spur the appetite and maybe fend off the tumor growth for a bit. She still has problems with the hind legs, and she still is weighty, despite the weight she's lost. I got a Bottoms Up leash a couple weeks ago, but even that isn't helping to place her feet flat when she walks.
She's just not the same old Sophie-dophie, and THAT, my friends, is a big determining factor. I think the liver toxins are going to her brain (I recognize some of the signs from when I went thru this with Frieda). Yes, I think calling it off tomorrow would only delay the inevitable.
I have bought her 5 wonderful months. I am truly happy about that.
This downturn was literally overnight. Poor Sophie. I still am praying that maybe she'll just stop breathing overnite and spare me the decision. But from the way she is acting now, I don't think that will likely happen. Right to the end, Sophie is not going to make things easy for me. :-) Heck, I'm going to miss that.
My eyes, neck, chest muscles are sore from crying and I haven't even been through tomorrow yet. But, then, you all know what it's like.