Hi there, I know I don't post very often, but I lurk A LOT. I lost both Apollo and Orion in 2016, and I'm just now starting to be able to say their names with out falling apart...
Apollo we lost March 2, 2016. He was a Rott/Shepherd mix, he was 16 years old. He had starting having seizures out of the blue the year before, but thankfully they were controlled with medication. Then he started losing control of his back legs and we found out he had a tumor compressing his spinal cord that was causing him such intense pain it was skyrocketing his resting heart rate to 240. We had 4 good months to spoil him, love him, and prepare ourselves to lose him. When he finally couldn't stand up anymore, and the daily pain injections stopped working we helped him pass so he wouldn't suffer. It was so peaceful and so full of love and tears and sadness of losing a child that we had had for 16 years. It was so hard to say goodbye to Apollo, but he was ready. He had a fabulous life full of nothing but love and kindness. We miss him so much, but we are at peace knowing he had 16 amazing years on this earth.
Orion on the other hand, Orion was stolen from me. Taken way too soon. Orion was my heart dog, my soulmate, the love of my life. He was a German Shepherd, only 10 years old. Cancer took Orion only 23 days after he was diagnosed. He was completely fine one day, and then dying the next day. I had no time to prepare myself to lose my son. He got so sick so fast, and then that was it. On August 3rd 2016 Orion woke up very stiff and painful in his hips, and refused breakfast. I had been planning on taking him to a chiropractor anyway, so for him to be in so much pain he skipped a meal was the wake up call he needed to go in immediately. I took him in to his normal vet the same day to have x-rays of his hips done so the chiropractor could see his problem areas. The vet took him in back for x-rays and when she returned she said, "yeah his hips are in bad shape, but I'm more worried about this giant tumor on his spleen." I said WHAT TUMOR!?!? It was in that moment that my world fell apart. We discovered Orion had a melon size tumor on his spleen. We immediately started other testing to figure out what the heck this thing was and where it came from. Bloodwork showed he was so anemic that he was 2 points away from needing a blood transfusion, and he had a fever of 105. The vet suspected something called hemangiosarcoma, she took a syringe and pulled frank blood out of his abdominal cavity. That confirmed the spleen cancer, Orion was bleeding out internally. He was dying. We did a abdominal ultrasound and some other tests to see if Orion was a candidate for surgery. We discovered tumors on his liver and kidney as well. It had spread, Orion was terminal. On August 26th 2016 his spleen tumor ruptured and he bleed out internally. He held on as hard as he could for me, but I couldn't let him suffer any longer. I put him to rest that night. It completely shattered my soul. I don't know how to function in a world where my Orion doesn't exist. This cancer completely blindsided me, Orion was so healthy and normal, he showed no signs of going anywhere anytime soon. I feel like I'm wading through cement. I can't believe my perfect Orion is gone. I don't think I'll ever be the same.
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Apollo, Orion & Remus...and the kitties, Flower and Jasper!!